Revenge

Revenge....that was the subject of our bible study that we had a couple of weeks ago with our Pastor Casey. when i heard the subject title i said " thats not me, i have no revenge against anyone....this is lulu...who could i hate so much to want revenge against"..as the study went on, Casey touched a subject that i hadn't thought about in a while. he started saying that "sometimes we have something against someone hidden inside of our hearts, that we have not let go. he said it could be something against a person that every time you hear their name it makes your stomach turn inside out. it could be unfaithfulness,maybe it happened two months ago, maybe it happened two years ago, for others it could have been 25 years ago. and the person that was hurt hasn't been able to forget and brings it up every time they have an argument ' remember when...' or maybe there's someone that has revenged against you and just says your forgiven but deep inside that person still has it buried deep inside their heart." By this time i was already crying, screaming in my mind " OOOOHHH MY GOD, this is me. i do hate someone and i haven't been able to forgive her. i felt so convicted by the pastor's words that i felt a little embarrassed and i just started thinking about the person that hurt me. thinking " i don't have to do anything to hurt her, i just have to forgive her." i thought she was my best friend, i really liked her, but she still ended up hurting me. so after this i started thinking, yes i do have to forgive because the pastor said " unforgiveness is like drinking poison and hoping the other person dies" and i started thinking, " well...i don't want to die, so i think i'm ready to forgive her."

he ended by saying this " have you loved them, have you blessed them, have you prayed for them, have you forgiven them" and this is what got me the most " when we experience God's forgiveness we have the power to forgive". so i say to all of you, if you have someone in your life that you haven't forgiven, TRULY forgiven, just do it...it feels good inside...

Super Tuesday....

This Tuesday I had the opportunity to serve my community,by helping in the voting polls. It was a long long day because ojitos' car broke down and he had to take me earlier than i was suppose to be there. i was suppose to be there at 6 am and he dropped me off at 4:55 am. i had to be out there sitting down all by myself in the cold hesperia morning. the only thing keeping me warm was a corn bag that i took with me. as i was sitting there all by myself looking all around for any danger, i started thinking about the homeless people " how do they do it to survive during winter time?" i was so cold i could feel it all over my bones.the good thing is i only had to stay there for 45 mins, but it seemed forever. when the people arrived they still didn't open up the room we were going to use. they finally opened it a little bit after 6 am. we started setting up, waiting for the polls to be opened at seven. i really liked the experience and i'm thinking about going back again. the only thing that got me was a few rude people.That were register as republicans but wanted to vote as democrats.I would tell them that they couldn't do that and they would get a little angry and start raising their voice at me. for the most part, there was alot of nice people, i really liked saying " hi, how are you? can i have your name......thank you for voting.....have a nice day". they say that theres gonna be another voting for state in june or july and i think i'm gonna be going. even though my body hurt so bad the next day. i learned alot of things that i didn't know. i didn't know that there were other parties, i only thought that it was democrat and republican .....oh and american independent ....but thats another long story....ask me about it when you see me...